Writing Dilemmas

I made it to Sussex and the world is very different here. I was just finally sitting down to do some free writing when I realised I hadn't updated this blog for a while. I haven't really been tending to the projects this blog is mainly focused upon. I have done zero work on the Artist's Way and next to no work on the morning pages.

This morning is the first time or second time I have managed to complete the full three pages of morning writing. After my experience of clearing out my hostel room, I decided to go paperless and try and type up my pages, but it seems I can't type fast enough on my mobile. This means I get a paragraph done per day, which is not a great deal.

It has been strange to not have as much time for writing and I don't know if it is good for me. That perhaps my thoughts are forced to slow done because I have in effect more time for them to not be my focus. I am not sure.

I am wondering if I will wake up at six each morning to get some exercise and do some writing before walking to work.

What I do need to do is to finish the Artist's Way. I have not had an artist's date since probably July or August and definitely not since my heart was broken.

In terms of my spiritual life beyond writing and the Artist's Way, I have been to meeting once since I made it down here. I am not too worried about it, to be frank as just walking in nature and taking in the beauty of the morning feels like an enough at the moment. Nestled in the hills, surrounded by natural wonder, do you need a place to worship? Perhaps that is the pagan living inside of me who says such things.

I spoke to the ancestors a few times through the oracle and again they said some interesting things.

I guess I will keep on keeping on...

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