In the World...

So it has been a while since I have properly blogged anything. Keeping up with my life offline has been taking most my energy. What prompted the post on swimming? I was looking at the first YALP moodle activity, and thinking to myself how things have changed since the course, and realised that I felt like I was losing some of the peace and silence I had.

I have been listening to more music (can you not tell), and but not nearly as much as I did before my time in Woodbrooke. When I got fed up of life on Tuesday and decided the only thing I could do with myself was to swim, I regained that silence within myself, and felt more or less alright for an hour or two. I went back to the calm centre, and heard my inner voice. Swimming over fairly long periods of time is good for this kind of internal communication, I think this is well known.

And I feel alright now.

I don't think I really had an issue with my music consumption. A large part of my life is about the music, so I guess if I switch off suddenly, and sit in silence alone, then perhaps something deep has happened. I imagine. Right now I teach to music, and find it helps a lot in the language class room, though I am not sure why (might be the part of the brain it stimulates), other than being a lot of fun, inspiring, and good for group emotional control.

Whilst waiting for my students to finish their work, I found myself looking out of the window, and really experiencing the movement of the wind through the trees. A peaceful classroom, peaceful students, and their peaceful teacher.

I discovered the soundtrack for the Song of the Sea, today, a animated film. It is worth listening to.

So aside from the music or lack there of, I am feeling well or better. I haven't been to meeting since I got back from what I like to call Quaker camp. I have needed my weekends for myself entirely. Trying to keep up with the summer school, my student, volunteer job, as well as exercise, and have some sort of life, is more than enough right now.

Things had been so quiet for six months, and now everything happens at once! It has been good to get out of the old routine, and into a new work place, and using my ESL teaching skills for group classes. I am not sure what happens after the summer, I am trying to be open to being lead (or I just haven't decided...). 

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