The End of Day 4 - Spiritual Journeys

After exploring our differences in Myers Briggs terms, we broke for dinner, and met after for a reflective session. The course lasts for two years, and apparently it can be a good place to just transform. To push yourself into areas you have never tried before, and become someone new. Intense transformations have taken place in the past, perhaps it could happen for me after my ejection from the academic institution.

In the reflective session we discussed what our expectations of the course were, and then discussed what we had learnt about ourselves in pairs. I have to admit, I felt that I was not Quaker enough to apply for the course, and that perhaps I had picked a bad time to be doing 'leadership training'. Now I am here, I am happily re exploring my Quakerism, and thinking about leadership and what that actually means to me. It feels like a much needed booster shot to my spiritual life, which has been lost and confused for a few years since leaving home.

Actually ever since I left behind my first Quaker connection (he was an INTJ), I have felt a little lost in spiritual terms (though it was good to strike out on my own).

I drifted from my original Buddhist tradition, and wonder when I will be unmasked as a fake Quaker. Sort of a non academic version of impostor syndrome, probably partly to do with coming from a non religious background. It is irrational, not even sure why I feel the above. I am basically an individual on their own path, and sometimes I bump into intense experiences which match or do not match various religious ideas etc. I am a seeker of the truth, though I am a bit lost as to what the nature of that truth is these days. 

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