The End of Day 4 - Puzzle

Oh no, now I am being sucked into a train of thought. If I am searching for truth, then does it matter whether it has a practical application? If I have left academia never to return, does that end one way of searching for truth, or was that never the place to look for it?

Questions, questions. I am not sure what I am searching for. Life was the search for something, now it is unclear.

Post academia and the fall out of my masters, I was subjected to a re education of accepting that though I felt some of what happened to be illogical and frustrated that people were not direct with me in the first place, that this was sometimes a part of human behaviour.

I had to come to terms with indirectness and people leaving you hanging around wondering. I don't like it, however, being in my own mind simple and straight forward when I finally do make my needs known (she says...), and in desire of direct and simple and straight forward responses.

So much for people and our differences, maybe I still have a lot to learn.

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