Day 9 - Leadership, Witness, Bad Quakers

The first residential of this course is coming to a close. It is a sad moment, but also a happy one, because this has been a good time in my life. I have really receive a lot from being here, and felt at home.

That is always something to record and tell the world, and feel privileged to have received. I have given up a few things to be here, Pride, a karate grading, and a few other concerns, are all going on without me, but perhaps to be here resting and learning, was more important to my development.

Tonight is the end of course party, so I probably won't get the chance to sit in my room and quietly write my blog, times I have really valued and enjoyed. I am going to miss this room, and I hope I can come back, and be a part of Woodbrooke (I think I have given Woodbrooke various different spellings in the blog), again.

That all said, today we talked about leadership, witness, and referenced 'bad Quakers.' Quakers who haven't lived up to the 'image' and reputation Quakers have enjoyed. We also considered, in pairs, a quote from advices and queries and considered how this could lead to action in our lives, and leadership.

I was introduced to the idea that the Quaker testimony comes from a direct connect to the spirit, and from this you can not live any other way, rather than seeing the values and something on a check list to tick off. If I haven't thought a great deal about Quaker testimony, not really understanding what this really is.

And then I was introduced to the darker side of Quaker history, and this felt more or less healthy, at least from my perspective. Considering I know myself, I think it can be a risky business saying you worship with Quakers; after all who wants to be idealised?

I am only one flawed and imperfect human trying to live up to whatever the light has given me, and perhaps that is more or less than someone with great achievements like Elizabeth Fry, but in my lowly way, I still count. Its good to have Quaker role models, and to listen when someone challenges you on your way of life, but it is also good to recognise when you don't live up to something.

And with that great revelation of flawed and imperfect humanity, I think I will have a nap. i may blog again on the go, if I get a chance. 

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